Hello there~!
I've been doing nothing for a couple of days already. I've been taking my time for granted way too long. My test starts on the second week of the exam week but I should have known better that, once it starts before I know it, it's the last paper. There would be no time to even breathe!
I've been doing nothing for a couple of days already. I've been taking my time for granted way too long. My test starts on the second week of the exam week but I should have known better that, once it starts before I know it, it's the last paper. There would be no time to even breathe!
*Oh, Went to see Rihanna and Chris Brown last night and it was awesome. will update the videos and pictures as soon as I'm done with exams and when my energy kicks in again. hahahahahaha*
What did I do today?
Went to Fitness First, haha. No, I did not join but there were so many cute cute cute kakoii kawaii guys. Nyahahahahaha. *sakit dada* During the tour around the place, it was kinda awkward because all of them turned their head around or to the side. Which made me think that "I know I'm fat, you don't have to look at me like that". Belle and I spent an hour there, we weren't that surprise on how persistent they are at trying to persuade us to join the gym and I can't really agree to join on the spot because my money supply comes from my daddy *nyehehehe*
After we spent an hour at the gym just talking and cuci mata, we went to Mill Point for ice-cream. Nice right? After we talked about our health and goals on what to achieve, we go and eat ice cream. It was delicious. Well going to Mill Point helps us to clear our mind, we would talked about things that are bothering us or what we were thinking about a few topic. Talking always helps, especially when you're in way over your head and you're screaming your hearts out for anyone's help.
At one point, I told Belle, I'm always looking for something that could make me feel pain. I would purposely do something that could hurt myself. So when I feel pain, I feel relive. Happiness doesn't last long. At times I thought that why bother finding or being happy when eventually in the end, you'll die. Or probably, sooner or later something would happen, your own time of happiness would come and -happily ever after- *bluwekk:no such things* I know sounds so EMO. But I'm not trying to be EMO, I'm trying to sort things out, I'm trying to find that path again, the path where I'm sure what I want, I'm sure I can get what I want, I'm sure that what I'm doing is right. But everytime I feel stable on knowing what I want in life and what I want to achieve, I'll be dragged by this HUMONGOUS LIFE FORCE that would pull me back into that state-of-mind. That state-of-mind, where I questioned everything. and I mean EVERYTHING. From the people who's in my life and what's in store for me in the future.
I never really needed anyone. When I'm in trouble I would pretend in front of my family and friends that I'm okay *but I know they know* I guess getting used of settling stuff on my own, I never really wanted to go and ask for help from anyone. Oh well, it's a part of growing up right? But recently, whenever I feel sad or anything *datang sewel kata nya* I would talk to Mr. S. Sometimes I wish that *fill in the blanks* but everyone that came into your life serves as a purpose. Heck everything that happened serves as a purpose. But I've prayed that NONE would happen that could make me lost my focus. I guess I'm not that religious and so, my prayers weren't answered. hehe. Then again without any obstacles, life would be so easy, so I don't think it would be fair too. I could live my life without knowing Mr. S. but I chose not too. I don't know why, I guess I just want someone to grab hold when I feel like I'm going down again.
P/S: I hate Casino Royale! I hate the actor who's playing James Bond, Whatever his name is. He's not James Bond material. I would prefer the old actor.
Later days.
After we spent an hour at the gym just talking and cuci mata, we went to Mill Point for ice-cream. Nice right? After we talked about our health and goals on what to achieve, we go and eat ice cream. It was delicious. Well going to Mill Point helps us to clear our mind, we would talked about things that are bothering us or what we were thinking about a few topic. Talking always helps, especially when you're in way over your head and you're screaming your hearts out for anyone's help.
At one point, I told Belle, I'm always looking for something that could make me feel pain. I would purposely do something that could hurt myself. So when I feel pain, I feel relive. Happiness doesn't last long. At times I thought that why bother finding or being happy when eventually in the end, you'll die. Or probably, sooner or later something would happen, your own time of happiness would come and -happily ever after- *bluwekk:no such things* I know sounds so EMO. But I'm not trying to be EMO, I'm trying to sort things out, I'm trying to find that path again, the path where I'm sure what I want, I'm sure I can get what I want, I'm sure that what I'm doing is right. But everytime I feel stable on knowing what I want in life and what I want to achieve, I'll be dragged by this HUMONGOUS LIFE FORCE that would pull me back into that state-of-mind. That state-of-mind, where I questioned everything. and I mean EVERYTHING. From the people who's in my life and what's in store for me in the future.
I never really needed anyone. When I'm in trouble I would pretend in front of my family and friends that I'm okay *but I know they know* I guess getting used of settling stuff on my own, I never really wanted to go and ask for help from anyone. Oh well, it's a part of growing up right? But recently, whenever I feel sad or anything *datang sewel kata nya* I would talk to Mr. S. Sometimes I wish that *fill in the blanks* but everyone that came into your life serves as a purpose. Heck everything that happened serves as a purpose. But I've prayed that NONE would happen that could make me lost my focus. I guess I'm not that religious and so, my prayers weren't answered. hehe. Then again without any obstacles, life would be so easy, so I don't think it would be fair too. I could live my life without knowing Mr. S. but I chose not too. I don't know why, I guess I just want someone to grab hold when I feel like I'm going down again.
P/S: I hate Casino Royale! I hate the actor who's playing James Bond, Whatever his name is. He's not James Bond material. I would prefer the old actor.
Later days.
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Zsa zsa, exam abis nak???????? Balit kuching gik, papolah ktk 3 bulan sia kelak??? Mun sik, gi singapore in december ka, join mek sia. Hehehe.
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