Is it weird, if yourself change when something that you believed was somewhat something that you didn't want and somehow you've changed into someone who is not that happy.

I know I am missing something. I'll just have to wait for it to really come. Jen De Wo Ai Ni *who ever the future brings*
As for now, I'm going to enjoy my time with the people that matters to me the most.

There will come to a point in our life that when we think about it, we hoped that we could go back in time and changed the past.

But who are we kidding? We could never changed the past nor go back in time to change it. I guess we just have to remind ourselves that, Things Do Happen For A Reason, even when everything did not go accordingly to what we want and how we expect to it to happen.

Life's a bitch ain't it? I'm just living it!

Right now, I kept on thinking and reminded about the night that I walked out. I kept on wondering, what if I stopped and looked back and stay there. Would everything still be the same like before? Would things be like how it is now? Oh how I wish~ things would go back like before.

Later days,

Double Zee.

Harloww...

Now that we are towards the end of the semester, one by one of us are leaving Perth. I'll be the third person leaving. Somehow, I really do cherish this semester. It was fun, a pinch of psychotic, a sprinkle of annoyance and a big spoon of sighseeing. Overall, I wouldn't change it for the whole wide world. I guess this is how and what University life should be when you're abroad. You'll be a tourist too. (^_^)

Oh! earlier today, dad called to informed me that the parents are going to Umra' and that he wants me to take care of the house and so on. I was a bit shocked because I really can't anymore. I shouldn't say that I can't. I should say I don't want to take care of the stuff. It can be quiet tiring, especially for my age. I'm still young and I'm on my holiday break! I wanted to stay at the apartment and try to relax by myself. I did take care of everything once and having a big brother doesn't help much.

Anyways, I guess I won't be seeing the usual people in Kuching. I know I'll be so damn busy from morning til night and that's why I'm not sure if I'll be able to see them.

Later days,

Double Zee.

Harlow,

We went to Mudaring tonight. It tooked us around 20 - 30 minutes from Jon's house and as usual, there were a lot of people but then again we help ourselves to unfold the tables. The pizza dessert was so nice, the mudhoney! and I don't really like the apple and cinnamon, I ate only the apples and gave the others to Jon. *Thank you for finishing my dessert* I think Jon ordered it because it's apple and cinnamon. haha. While we were waiting for the pizzas to come a song that I'm quite addicted to these days played and it's like the song is played where ever I go.

Don't you think it's time

Time to start anew

Time for changing views

Time for making up your mind

Don't you think it's time

Time for moving on

Time for growing strong

Time to leave the past behind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

Don't you think it's time

Time for quelling fear

Time for a new year

Time for meaning what you say

Don't you think it's time

Time for easing doubt

Time for reaching out

Time to open up your eyes

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

Don't you think it's time

Time for trusting more

Without keeping score

Time to let forgiveness out

Don't you think it's time

Time for showing grace

Time for having faith

Time to make more of this time

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

I don't think I can take this holiday, I know by this time next week I'll be back in Kuching. I could probably be in bed sleeping, or out with my friends, or in the TV room watching those long long dramas til I look like a panda the next day.

I also don't like facebook nowadays, it's so damn bored! It makes me....hmmmm out of words. and Oh! Now I know what I want to eat when I reach Kuching:

1. Rojak Buah

2. Hainanese Four Points

3. Mdm. Tangs Laksa

4. Mom's random food menu

The people are planning to eat at:

1. Bella Itallia

2. Hartz *i know of all the places, eating at hartz kinda random doe!*

3. BBQ

4. Steamboat

5. MP pizza

6. Ayam penyet

Anyways, talking about the people, I am referring to the people here. The usual people that we always hang out with. All of us are going back and we've already plan on what all of us wants to do. Earlier on our way back home, I said something that our lives right now are like the TV series..I guess everyone knows which one:

Everyday we would see each other, everyday we would play as soon as Jon finished his work. Almost everyday we would be loud til midnight or almost midnight. Sometimes I think, that one day the police would come knocking on this house to ask us all to SHUT UP at this hour. But then, I like it. Even if all of us go our separate ways in the future, I think that we are going to be friends for life, eventhough we won't be seeing each other everyday.

Right now almost most of us are free, Dya and Haziq are playing the board game - "who wants to be a millionaire" It's quite funny looking at them and listening to them playing, it made the house more alive at 2.30am.

I think I've been craping to much and I also think that my brain is dead slow nowadays and we're going to the city again tomorrow.

Later days,

Double Zee.

Harlow,

I've lost count of what day of break already.

I've been stalking a few people in facebook.

Read their comments, status updates and purposely do something that pisses me off.

Humans makes me wonder about a lot of stuff like:

1. Be friends of people you ignored once we're not in talking terms anymore.

2. Keep a straight face infront of everyone, after you lie and lie alot.

3. I also wonder why would I even care about it to begin with!

Today, I woke up in the morning to send Momogi and uncle to the airport. Uncle asked if i was an Indo again. Lol. I honestly don't know what to talk to uncle while I was driving them to the airport. Then, I went to Uni, to sort out my enrolment stuff and man I feel pretty guilty. The old lady was practically running inside out the office because of me. But in the end it all works out okay, I'm enrolled to Construction and Building Costs unit and I would only be doing 3 units next semester. Woohuuu!!! After everything's done, I went home and slept til 2pm and went to Bali for lunch, the best cheap lunch place ever!!!! Around 3pm, we went to pick Rin Rin up from school and went straight to city to do a bit of shopping.

Last night we made dinner and it was nice! *will upload pics later*

Later days,

Double Zee.

Hello.

As you know, at least I think you know? I'm back in Perth. AND I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT! But I'm still on a holiday, class starts on Tuesday!

I went out to Orchard road around 7pm, I went to have dinner ALONE! at Yoshinoya. Man, it feels awkward as hell, to eat alone. Then, went back to the hotel around 8pm or 9pm. Talked to Meera and parents a couple of times. Bing kept on msging me to make sure that I won't fall asleep and eventually I did. But he woke me up when he got off work and that was around 2am. Yes. I quickly get ready and went down to meet up with him. It was fun though, we were out walking around early in the morning. We went to Gloria Jeans for some drinks, then we hanged out by the roadside for hours......as in from 3.30am til 7.30am.

We talked about what happened in our lives so far. and I told him that Abu and I made an agreement, by the age of 29, if none of us are married or engaged, we would marry each other. Bing's also going through some difficulty right now, but then, he knows what his doing.

"To Cook Nasi Lemak In His Own Apartment In New York"

I envy him because since secondary school, he always know what he wants and how to achieve it. Unlike me, I'm still thinking what I want to do or be. It's like I'm still roaming on the face of the earth not knowing where to go or what to do. Gosh!!!

Hello..

I'll be leaving this coming Tuesday (17/2/08).

A part of me will miss Kuching.
A part of me just can't wait to get out.
A part of me keeps on wondering.
Either way all of us are going back.

Later days.

p/s: busy spending time with family.

Harlooooooeee.....

It's been a week, life without internet connection, without MSN, without YM, without watching gossip girl (oh well i lost track of the episodes already), without easy access of my bank account, without facebook, without friendster, without.........OK! you get the picture!

My parents decided to stay at SS for the Chinese New Year holiday, considering it's a school holiday too. I was more of "gun pointed to the head" by my dad or elseee...

Most of the days, I drive up and down, from Santubong to Town. I would be back there around midnight, usually the drive up to SS would always be peaceful, with the radio blasting my favorite song and my mind on "am i going to meet one of those 'people' tonight? the long hair woman at the bus stop?" hahahaa Thank God. Never!!! wish to remain that way~

Anyways, don't feel like updating now. So,

Later days! Take care~

Hello,

It's been awhile since I last updated. What happened?
The unknown stranger (Un.S.) is back in Kuching. But didn't picked him up at the airport. I was having dinner with a few of my cousins & friends at Java Juices. I didn't eat anything but the burgers are nice and the juices.

Few more weeks, I'll be heading back to Perth. Sad? Yeaaaa. Oh! Sha left for Melaka yesterday and I cried at the airport because she have and has always been in Kuching everytime I'm back. It's nice to have friends to be here. You look foward on something (at least made me happy). But somehow mid-year, we won't be sure if we'll be meeting up. Shaaaaaa!!! I miss you!!I still have friends back in Kuching. Un.S, would be going back to suckiest-place-ever around next week.

Last night, Ina sort of like got engaged. Will update the pics soon.

Today is Sunday. Parents at Santubong along with other siblings. Somehow I'm at home with a few other siblings, I want to go to my grandma's house this afternoon because once I'm back in Perth, every sunday would feel....EMPTY.

wake up every morning with this kind of view? nice (^_^)

Honestly, how dumb could the first born child gets?

they are as dumb as it gets!
i think the mentally retarded people have more brains then THEM!
They even shout during AZAN! Im not that religious. I honestly don't pray but AT LEAST I RESPECT!!! not to shout during azan! not to shout at kids coz they are just kids.

Talking about what they got to do and CANT DO!
They get everything because if they dont they'll give you THE SILENT TREATMENT.
YES! Even though people say we get a year older by the year and wiser, who ever said that really dont know how things are! They get DUMBER BY THE YEAR!
IMMATURE! WASTE OF LIFE! WASTE OF TIME! & WASTE OF MONEY!!!!
they always taking the easy way out! because the parents are still alive!
oh well yaa! i wish every parents well to live their lives til their great great grand-daughters
but with a kid like this? which parent will?
always worrying their heads of thinking about THE FIRST BORN CHILD!
*they say if you're a girl that's different but your a male*
Always think that they are right!
Clever? yes, clever than the monkeys! but I think the trained monkey are smarter than them!

They don't care what they've done but at the end of the day. THE SECOND CHILD ARE LEFT TO CLEAN UP YOUR MESS!!!
THE SECOND CHILD ARE GIVEN THE RESPONSIBILITY TO TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING!!
WHY???
THE FIRST BORN CHILD ARE SO DUMB THAT I'M SO SPEECHLESS!!

dont shout when I talk!
dont disrespect when I still show you respect!
now that i dont care
i wont help you
you're a burden to ME!
you make my life miserable for your immature thinking and action.
you can lie to the elders but i can come out and tell the truth (on your behalf)
what you've been doing behind their back
sooo FUCK OFF you mentally retarded fucker!!!

dont ever think that you have the RIGHT to shout/yell or anything to me!

p/s: people who reads this, just read and mind your own business.

I got nothing to do....
what am I supposed to do...
holiday starts.....
I dont feel like going back.....
I dont feel like doing anything....
but somehow I like this song.....

T.I feat Rihanna - Live Your Life

Later days

17th November
Marketing Research
Real Estate Development

18th November
Law Real Property

19th November
Real Estate Finance

And I would be done for the semester. I can't wait to.............uhhh everything can wait. nothing really matters. I don't really care if i'm going back to kuching. I don't really care how everything gonna turn out. So, pendek cerita, I don't care about anything and everything. So tired already to even care about anything. That would just be wasting my time.

all i want is........

for you to stay...........

got too attached...........

now....paying the price.......

of nothing......................

what do i care?